Jeszba

O goodnes....

2007-02-19T20:18:00.000-05:00

LIfe is crazy!!!! My week has been so busy. Jenna came home!!! Yay! Jenna is officially back. That was so awesome!! I turned 19, and I got a new job. School is going crazy. I just had a presentation, I have a big essay due, a history test, math test, and a Russian teacher to please. (by pleasing, I mean I need to get my homework done and to do well in it all. I don't mind that at all, but it is sorta stressful at times) Oh well, that's life. So anyway. That's all. Be blessed ya'll!

Sad day :(

2006-12-29T18:45:00.000-05:00

:( It was a sad week. Christmas came with sorrow this year. Here's the link. http://www.fayobserver.com/article?id=250237 This girl is my second cousin. For those who know me, you can email me for more details if you want. But ya'll please pray for her husband. He really needs it.

painted hands

2006-12-11T08:41:00.000-05:00

I have a little nugget ya'll can think about. Okay, so God taught me something. I mean, I already knew it, so it was more of a reminder. Here goes:

So I was having a hard time last night. (rather not go into details) but I was frustrated. So instead of going to God with my problems I took a bunch of markers and totally drew on my hand. It looked so neat! You couln't see my hand in the end. Well, it was late and I needed to wash my hand. (it began to smell because that much marker doesn't smell well after a while) So I'm trying to wash my hand and only some of the marker comes off. So my hand is bright red and purple, plus it still smells. So I go to bed but before I do, I rub tons of lotion on to mask the smell. Yeah, now my hand is greesy and smells 2x worse! It was at this point that God reminded me of his love. What happened to my hand is what happens when we try to cover up sin. For example, if you sin and you know you sin. Being a chirstian or a non-christian, if you try to cover up that sin (like I covered up my hand) it may be okay for a while, but then you realize it's not all that great. You feel gross and then your cover up begins to stink. So you try to scrub it off yourself instead of going to God. So after minutes of scrubing, you realize that your "hand" is stained. The sin you committed has stained you. And nothing you try to do can remove it. There is only one thing that can remove it and make you pure again. It's Jesus' blood. Only he can make you clean.

So anyway, there's my little nugget. :)

2006-11-27T08:35:00.000-05:00

hmm... It's been awhile since I've written. School's going pretty well. Only two in a half weeks left!! I'm so excited! This is the first year where I get 3 weeks of Christmas vacation. Life's going pretty well. I'm training a new horse, flicka. She's really sweet and laid back. I'm in english class right now. We're not really doing anything. We already had our lesson or assaignment. What ever you really want to call it. Here's a paradox for you:
The Gentle Murder Paradox

If you commit murder, you ought to do so gently. Suppose then that you do commit murder. Then you ought to do so gently. Now from you ought to do A it follows that you ought to do anything logically implied by A. (For example, from I ought to help my mother and spend time with my children it follows that I ought to help my mother.) You are murdering gently entials you are committing murder. So, it follows that you ought to commit murder.

Anyone want to take a swing at that? We discussed it in english. Hope ya'll are doing well!! be blessed!

2006-11-06T08:34:00.000-05:00

hello. Sorry, i know it's been awhile. Wow. Alot has gone on these past few days. I got to hear from Jenna last night! (Yay!) Hm.. I'm excited about next semester. I hope I get the classes I want. I'm taking Russian. Hm. That will be interesting :) So what's up with all of ya'll? We've had a few earthquakes the past few weeks. I think there have been 4 or 5 total. Not big enough to do any damage. But they were enough to send us rolling. It was funny. Half of the older gernerations freaked out and called the police. Some thought a bomb had gone off...... it was fun :) Public speaking is horrible! ugh.. Oh! I have a good book I highly recommend. It's: When Boy Meets Girl. By Joshua Harris. It's like the sequal or something to I Kissed Dating Goodbye. hm. well, I've got to go. Be blessed!

2006-10-09T21:21:00.000-04:00

Goodmorning suntars! The earth says hello!!!

This just popped into my head. I think it's from Willie Wonka or something like that. Hope ya'll are doing well!

2006-09-20T22:03:00.000-04:00

Q: How many men does it take to unlock a door?
A: 4 men with one man on the other end of a phone trying to tell the 4 what to do. Plus 3 women to watch and laugh!

Wow! What a night! God is so cool. I don't have time to explain but I love you Katy!!

umba!

2006-09-04T19:34:00.000-04:00

La! What a week! I am having a great Labor Day weekend. Sat. was sad yet fun!! Our Senior Pastor died last week and the funeral was Sat. morning. Afterwards Jenna, Katy, and I hung out all day!! I was so blessed! Jenna and I suprised Katy and took her shopping for a dress and shoes for next Saturday's "night on the town". We found this awesome dress that is a slight green but mostly bronze. It's so cool and she looks amazing in it! I mean, she is astounding no matter what, but she was gorgeous. I wish I had my camera when she tried it on so her mom and dad could see it. Her mom was speechless! Her dad had a smile so big! I'm getting excited about next Sat. Hopefully everybody will get to come. School starts back tomorrow. Thankfully I only have math class. Which reminds me..I have homework!! Ah! Oh well. God's been moving again in my life. He's such a wonder. A frustration and wonder. Hmm...I got a spiritual lesson out of Aladin. I LOVE that movie. Jenna and I watched it last Sat. night. I was contemplating it on the way home. The part where Aladin reaches out his hand toward Jasmine and says "do you trust me?". That was really cool. God has been teaching me the importance of trusting Him nomatter what. Whoa! I never realized how much "stuff" was in a Disney movie! I'm not going to go into all of it, however, in Aladin, the god "Allah" is mentioned and praised more than once. Jasmin's father constantly makes mention of him. I know that he is a false god, but it's a Disney movie. Who would've thought? One more, I never realized how imodest some girls in a disney movie could be. Now look, I'm going on and on. If you can't tell, I'm bored. There hasn't been much to do. I want to start another book, but I'm not sure. I don't think my original is going to work out. Sad. I think it was my fault. I really want God to be in the center of all I do. And I want to do His will. I began to leave God out of what I was doing, and pushed Him a side. So I'm praying about my next book. Be blessed ya'll!

2006-08-29T20:30:00.000-04:00

Hmm..
..what to say Lord it's You who give me life...
Everyday! It's You I live for! Everyday! I'll follow after you!
Everyday! I'll walk with You my Lord!!
...
Those are some of my favorite lines from that song. (Everyday)
Wow. It's been a good two days. I was reading from Isaiah chp. 45-46 last night.
To sum it up, God was saying there is absolutely NO other God. He was the beginning and the end, the one who gives life and takes away. Who brings peace, but will cause calamity. Those are 2 awesome chapters. I stared classes a week and a half ago. My favorite class is Western Civ. I LOVE it! We just got done talking about Ancient Egypt and are now onto the Hebrews. It is so weird to hear the history of the Hebrews through a secular point of view. I noticed how my teacher completely skipped over Jesus' death on the cross. He only noted it to say that it was just "another rebellion in the eyes of the Romans" Still, this is my favorite class! I actually look forward to this class. God is so cool. I didn't know what to read last night in my quiet time, so God led me to Isaiah chp. 45-46. I'm glad I read it. 'Cause as I said, we just got done with the Egyptians. Our last topic was on the Egyptian gods. How Amon-Re is the "father god" and then there's Isis, goddess of fertility, and so on and so on. God just reminded me that those "gods" are nothing. He is the one and only God. My oh my! I am so excited!!! My best friend, Jenna, and I are finally going to have our "night on the town"! Even though she went to her senior prom, I didn't. I was the wierdo who decided to go to a horse show instead. :) Anyway, I got a beautiful prom dress for my birthday and havn't used it yet. Jenna and I decided to have our own "prom" (but it's called a galla.) We are inviting a group of people. If all come there will be 5 guys 5 girls. We're going to a fancy dinner and were going to have dancing and a "social" at my grandparents basement afterwards. I think some were worried at first with the dancing part, but it's going to be more like "ballroom" dancing than a wild whatever. I'm pretty sure that half the people going don't know how to dance so this will be interesting. (I'm included in the ignorance of dancing.) Wow! there is so much more I could write, but I must go...Be blessed ya'll!!

Jezba

2006-08-28T18:59:00.000-04:00

Jeszba:

Wonderful
Beautiful beyond compare
Unique
A sea of colour
Saphire blue
Twirling, dancing
Stubborn yet yeilding
Smiles
Laughter
Wild, yet captured in love
Like an untamed filly
Happy

2006-08-20T16:50:00.000-04:00

I am sooo bored! Man, there is nothing to do! I'm trying to decide if I want to watch a movie or not. Sigh, school starts tomorrow. I'm a college freshmen, but I sure don't feel like I'm in college. All my classes are basic, so I feel as if I'm in high school again. Oh well. I'm not going to let it get me down. My pastor gave all of the graduating seniors a challenge. Find 4 freinds in 28 hours. That's kinda hard to do at this community college. Everybody there looks at you as if they hate being there. But I'll definitly try. I'm sorta excited. Now, in the present time, what am I going to do? There is a movie that I don't like. It's a good movie, but I never found interest in it. Until now. For some random reason, I feel like watching it. It's : Robin Hood. But I'm by myself. I'd rather wait until dad gets home. (this is his favorite movie) or something. It's either Robin Hood, Galaxy Quest, or Lord of the Rings. I wanted to watch Pride & Prejudice, but mom's not home. That's an awesome movie, but I don't feel like watching it by mysefl. Hmm...what a delima. Maybe I'll read the book while I wait on dad to come home. I really wish there was a race on. Bleh. I guess this is the lull before the storm. Oh well..

What a week!!!!

2006-07-23T20:53:00.000-04:00

Wow, what a week. Okay, first I had my wisdom teeth taken out on Mon. Yes, all 6 of them. The doctor and nurses where awesome though. They did a really good job and were really nice. (sorry if this post sounds wierd, I'm still on pain medicine.) The week went by really fast. I wasn't in much pain, but that's probably because I slept the first 3 days. I watched movie after movie, but fell asleep during every single one. I never got to see the ending of any of them. The last few days haven't been as nice. I'm still in pain and it's been a week. (personally, I think I may have an infection. whoo hoo. ) On Fri. I went back to "work". I'm temporarily working for a friend of mine. It went quite well except I was in pain ( I couldn't take my medicine because I can't drive when I take it) and I found out that the mom of one of my friends past away Thurs. night. My friend, Chris, came home from work to find his mom dead. He's 17. I'm praying for him now, but I know this has got to be hard. I wish there was something I could do. Hopefully he will still be here. All of his family is in New York. Please keep him in your prayers. Okay, I got to see Pirates of the Carrabean last night! Whooo Hooo! Good movie. It was crazy. It stormed sooo bad during the movie. At the begining the lights kept flickering. We got home late. It was still lightning reall really bad. Yet my crazy family and I went out in the middle of the lighting to check out the damage. One of our trees got struck by lightning. A huge brach from that tree fell across our power lines. We were afraid that it would break. We had to move one of the cars because the lines were over our driveway. If it broke it would have blocked us in. Also, one of our trees fell over halfway, and one tree ( a pine tree) got striped of all its needles. However both trees were dead so it was only a matter of time. The storm lasted all night. Well, my brother is off at camp. He left today. So are a few of my best friends. And anoher is at the beach. I won't get to see her for 2 weeks. When she comes back, I leave for the beach. Yay! Well, I gott go. Need to take my wonderful disgusting medicine! Ya'll be blessed!
S<><

9-11..wow..

2006-07-09T15:26:00.000-04:00

wow. I just got back from New York City. I was there with my choir from church. wow. God is so amazing. There is so much I want to write about that trip, but I don't have time. However I do want to write this. On Friday, our last day, we got to visit ground zero and St. Paul's Church. wow. I wanted to see ground zero, but I was blown away. It was interesting to see where the World Trade Centers stood..and fell. There wasn't much. Just a really really big hole in the ground. There were still great steal beams in the bottom. You could see where there was damage still being repaired. Most of New York is loud. Yet, there seemed to be this reverent silence around ground zero. It was really weird. We prayer walked around it. Praying for the families of lost loved ones, the military in Iraq and elsewhere. We prayed for the goverment, for our leaders. It was a humbling experience. What got to me, though, was when we went to the church. It was right across from ground zero. The big trees surrounding it, kept it from being destroyed by falling debris. In the chruch were memorials left over from 9-11. There were leters from kids to the firemen and policemen who gave up their lives to save others. There were still posters of people missing, letters to people who were still missing (most likely dead) There were pictures and memorials that family members had set up for their lost family members and friends. It was.. I can't explain it. Afterwards, the girls ensamble (which I'm in) sang in front of this bell that had been dedicated to the people of 9-11. It stood in front of the church. We sang Pass Me Not and the Star Spangled Banner. It was hard to sing the last one because it reminded me and others that were around us of how proud we were to be living in this country. Seeing the memorials, seeing people in that church lighting a candle for their loved ones, it..hurt me to see others still grieving. I'm glad we went to war. I'm glad we stood up to the terrorist. They need to know that you don't mess with America. I just found out that the FBI, CIA or whoever, just foiled another terrorist attack set for New York. Apparently, the terrorist wanted to put a bomb in the subway system that ran from New York to New Jersey. The wanted it to explode and somehow flood Manhattan. How scary is that. I was just in New York. My choir, we rode that subway system. We spent most of our time in Manhattan. I thank God that he led the people to stop that attack. Hearing this, makes me more grateful for America. That we have the freedom to pray to reach out to the people there. To practice our faith. Wow, what a week. I have so much more to say, yet not enough time. Check out our web site: www.vglive.com It has all our pictures and stuff from that week on it. Be blessed!

YIKES!! Prayer please!

2006-06-29T22:17:00.000-04:00

Hey guys! Please pray for my friend!!! She got kicked in the stomach/ribs by her horse!! She is in the hospital right now. She has fluid in her stomach and they are keeping her over night to watch it. But if all goes well, she gets to go home tomorrow! Please pray that God heals her quickly!! Wow, I love her so much! She's like a real sister to me! Yet, I didn't realize how much she means to me or how deeply my love for her ran, until today. When I got that heart stopping phone call. Pray for her horse too, that she won't totally kill it when she gets better :) (I love you tack! ) Wow, what a day. Well, I better get to packin'! Next time you hear from me, I'll probably be in New York. (Hopefully!)

2006-06-13T21:19:00.000-04:00

Hmm...I feel like I should write something...but what...
Life's been crazy lately. Gettin' ready for the beach and choir tour. Yeah, not ready. :) Oh well! Choir practice was really good last Sun. New York is gettin' closer. Still prayin' about Minnesota. Here's the link if you want to see where I'm most likely going this fall: www.ywam-mn.org I'm excited. Gonna miss every body though. Wow. I am so bored. There really is nothing to do.. Anybody want a kitten? We have a stray cat around who just had kittens. Yeah, my neighbor is takin' care of em' and finding them homes. I think I'll go write in my story... Be blessed ya'll!

Oooooh...

2006-06-04T18:33:00.000-04:00

Wow. The June 3rd Benifit show at Mila was yesterday. It was a ton of fun. I went. I rode Jake. A 3 year old I had been "training" for his owner who's 10. Jake and I did pretty well. It was his first show, and he deserves a round of applause. He did so good! It was a great day. We had 15 horses at this show! With some kids sharing a horse! It took 3 trailers packed with horses! Go to the website it has all the info on how great everyone did! : www.arrowheadhillsranch.com/newspage Julia did an incredible awesome job!! She rode Jake bareback in the ride-a-buck class!! I also rode bareback. I rode splash another 3 year old. It was
his first show too. Splash was doing very well. I didn't enter him into the bareback class because he had never been ridden bareback until now. I forgot at first that I was wearing spurs (Mind you they were not harsh spurs at all) But then I remembered. I am NOT stupid. I knew I was on a young horse, bareback, with spurs. I fell off splash. But it was not because of the spurs. A lady who was there kept on saying it was because I was wearing spurs. That is not true! It was a freak accident. What happend was this: I began cantering Splash and was planning on going behind these 2 horse and riders. When I think 2 more came up and (they didn't do this intentionally, it was accidental) they blocked my path. So I went to turn Splash when he did this sorta jump/sidestep, sideways. I fell off. I knew I was falling so I turned and was able to land softly. So I wasn't hurt. The only thing that hurt and still hurts really badly, is my stinkin' pride. It was sooo embarasing to fall off at a show!!! I got up and got back on Splash, but I just walked him around to show him (and others) that it was okay. (Splash is very jumpy and scares easily)
So, yeah. My pride still stings, but oh well. That's part of learning and the horse business.

Oh yeah, my finger sorta hurts too. When I fell Splash stepped on my hand twice. pray that it's not broken. Thanks! :)

yay!

2006-05-28T16:25:00.000-04:00

YAY! I'm now officially done with highschool!! Wow, it's such a relief! My graduation was yesterday. I graduated with 132 other homeschool seniors. It was so cool. The graduation was sorta like a normal highschool graduation, except that my parents got to hand me my diploma. My family came in with air hornes! I think my favorite part was the cookout. My family and friends came. We ended up playing some ramdom form of volleyball. We had a blast!! (by the way, tack, my thumb now has the biggest black bruise on it! :) I never realized how grateful I was for my family and friends. Expecially my parents. God is so good. I am truly blessed with some wonderfull, loving parents :) Also,(Jenna's gonna kill me for tellin' everyone, but..) Jenna and I hung out afterwards until 12: 30 A.M. We went and egged/shaving creamed Cole's car; and we went and toilet papered (sp?)/shaving creamed/chocolate syruped/ syaran (sp?) wrapped Ashely's car. (of course we got permission from her parents first :) What a night!! This morning we had senior recognition at our church. That was cool. Our pastor challenged us to find at least 4 good Christian friends in the first 48 hours of college. He said those friends would help keep us growing toward Christ. That was pretty neat. Well, I gotta get ready for choir. Be blessed ya'll!

2006-05-18T20:16:00.000-04:00

Okay, so was told to post. (more like commanded, (I love you tack:) ) Anyway, my life has been crazy. Graduation is next Sat. This weekend is going to be crazy!! I have to work, then I have a piano recital, then I have to work again, and after work I have to go straight to babysit. Last weekend was a blast! I rode T, Tokens Tinkerbell, in a show. We did pretty good. (though the mare did better than me :) We came away with a few ribbons. We entered 2 jumping classes. They were '18 inch cross rails. And then, even though I have NEVER jumped this high, we entered 2 more jumping classes that were 2 feet 6 inches high. Wow. Jumping came so natually to me. It was so crazy! Yet fun. Still tryin' to figure out where God wants me next year. I have a feeling he wants me to do one of YWAM's DTS. The DTS I feel called to is in Minisota (sp?) Wow, what a week!! Be blessed luvs!

2006-04-30T21:29:00.000-04:00

Wow! What a day! Today, we had my brother's b-day party. He's now 15!!! Wow! We are growing up so quick! It's awesome! First, the girls ensamble sang in church today. We sang our accapello(sp?) song: faithfull. I love the lyrics to this song. They are so true! Here they are:

As I look back over my life, I can see how your love has guided me.
Even when I've done wrong, you've never left me alone, but you forgave me.
And you've kept on guiding. This I recall to my mind therefore I have hope.
It is because of your mercy that we are not consumed. Because thy compassion
fails not, it is new every morning! Great is thy faithfulness. Great is thy faithfulness.
I can never repay you Lord for what you've done for me. How you've loosed my shackles
and you've set me free. How you made a way out of no way. Turned my darkness into day.
You've been my joy in the time of sorrow. Hope for my tomorrow. Peace in the time of the
storm. Strength when I'm weak and worn! You've been, Lord you've been so faithfull.
You've been, Lord you've been so faithfull!

How true is that!! Okay, now to my random part of the blog :) As I was waiting for my family to arrive for the party, I ended up watching this really, not lame, but cheesy version of speed. It was called AirSpeed. It was a pretty good movie, but the camera work was bad and the acting was really cheesy. The plot wasn't to bad. (OKAY, SPOILER WARNING: IF YOU DO DECIDE TO WATCH THIS, DON'T READ. I'M COMMENTING ON THE ENDING!) Okay, so the plot is:
This really rich millionare and his wife (okay, so I missed the beginning.) well I"m not sure why they weren't with their daughter, but anyway. They are waiting for thier daughter to arrive at some airport in his private plane. Well, something happens (yeah, I missed this part too.) and a huge whole gets blown into the side of the plane. It's big, but not big enough to wreck the plane.
So anyway. The pilote gets nocked out and so does all the other crew members, plus the co-pilot. the daughter is the only one concious with no injuries. So She puts on the headphones and calls to the tower. So the next hour and half is about this girl, Nicole, trying to fly the plane by herself.
Of course the autopilote had to be engaged and headed for a crash course with the airport. Go figure it can't be turned off. Everything possible goes wrong. They lose connection, all that jazz. In the end, after every rescue and every other attempt is made to save the plane, this girl gets mad. She takes a baseball bat and beats the autopilote to death. (Why she didn't do this in the first place is beyond me!) and the autopilote disengages. In the end, she safely lands the plan and everybody is happy. So it sounds lame, but it was quite interesting. Well, that's my story:)
Be blessed ya'll!

2006-04-28T19:47:00.000-04:00

Woohooo! Extra awesome good news: Kaela Peyton! Leslie had her baby today!
Welcome to the world Keala!!

2006-04-27T21:12:00.000-04:00

Guys, please pray for this girl. I won't say much to keep her privacy, but she has been used, betrayed, and everything. She's hurting and she's not a Christian. Please pray for her.

2006-04-27T20:51:00.000-04:00

Lalalalalala la LAAAAA Yippeee doodle!!!!!!!!!! I am happy :) Hey random story:
...............Jello!! okay, so I don't really have a random story. I'm just bored, but happy. My Fo Tech teacher is soo cool. Today in class we had ice creame sundays. No joke. We spent the first 30 min of class eating and talking and the last 30min hearing a lecture on Access. We got out an hour early. He is so cool. He said that we've gone 15 weeks without much of a break, so he went easy on us today. I got new tires on my van today. I was so happy. Oh. Hey I have some major major prayer request for you. Here they are:
1. Leslie is having her baby tomorrow. They are inducing labor because she's late. This is her first child.
2. Marie is having major major surgery on Wed. Please keep her in your prayers.
3. Marie, Jessica, Michelle, and Becky with Andy and Christy(the horses) are going to a paint show this weekend. Pray for safety in travel and the show.
Please please pray for these people! They need it!!

WHOOOOOHOOOOO!!!

2006-04-24T21:24:00.000-04:00

whooo hooo! yeah!! Alright! I am so happy! Everything is done! Tonight, finally, Jacob and I finished our Power Point Project!! It's due tomorrow! And I was able to get everything finished that needed to be finished! All I have to do now is tackle that stupid test tomorrow! YaY!

2006-04-21T20:27:00.000-04:00

My love! My love! I was there! I was! I heard your cries! Every cry tore at my heart! I was there. I was the intern who prayed for you. I was the butterfly that landed on your nose and made you smile. I was there. You may not have know it, but I held you in my arms while you cried. I carried you when you could walk no more. No. There was no big voice that told you I was there. No. There was no sudden supernatural appearing. That would have scared you. I know your heart. I love you. I was there...I will always be there. All you have to do is call..

>Your True Lover,
Jesus

2006-04-21T20:24:00.000-04:00

No. I will not believe it. That was 2yrs ago. You weren't there. I cried and cried to you, but you didn't even care. You weren't there. Nobody was. Nobody's ever there, not when I need them the most. No.

>scarred and still hurting

AARRRGGGHH!!

2006-04-19T21:39:00.000-04:00

Okay, I am extremely angry right now. At the mall where I work there are normally a ton of guys and gals in the military walking around. Well, today, a guy from the Marines stopped to talk. He was really nice. He wasn't "officially" trying to recute me because he wasn't a recuter. This is his first year in the Marines. He graduated last May. His name is John ( I won't give whole name).
Well, we talked for about an hour. (it was slow) He told me what it was like and all that and I told him that I had been considering the military. Well, I also found out that he lives out near where I ride. I also found out he used to ride there himself. Well at the end of our conversation (he had to go) he gave me his "official" business card. It was the business card of a local recruter with his rank and name and phone number on the back. He wanted mine, but I wouldn't give it to him. ( I will NEVER give my number out to some one I don't know). Well, about 5 min after he left, 2 girls I work with came by. I told them what happened and stuff and one girl, Sandi said that she knew the guy and that he had a girlfriend. I felt like crap! I mean, I din't do anything, but seriously, HOW DARE HE DO THAT TO HIS GIRLFRIEND TO ME! I feel horrible for his girlfriend! If he shows up at the barn, he is so going to get the BIGGEST toung lashing he has ever had! I don't even think the military can compare to what he's going to get if he shows up! ARRGHHHGGHHHH!!!!!!!!! okay, I had to vent. So there.
Rrrr..

2006-04-18T21:11:00.000-04:00

My love my love..how can you say that. It hurts so deeply to hear you say that. Yes, I can understand why you don't believe, but I AM real. I did die. I died for YOU. I know your heart. I know your disbelief. I know you did once believe. You pretend that it's not real. It is. I know that you deliberatly disbelieve. But, I'm not like your father...nor your mother. I'm not like your boyfriend that used you and then left you to rot. I LOVE YOU!....It was good to see you at church on Sun. It was good to see you smile for the first time in years. I love you..I'm waiting on you...
Jesus<><

2006-04-18T21:07:00.000-04:00

Jesus, what Jesus? You aren't real. Forget it! No way. There is no way you're real. Your just a figment of some freak's wierd imagination that started over 2000 years ago. I don't believe it. Forget it. Just because Elaine invited me to church on Easter doesn't mean I believe. There's no way.

>disbeliever

2006-04-18T20:59:00.000-04:00

Fire, burning pain..
lost, deep, wounded
drowning, falling..falling
faint, light, dimming..
darkness..
cold..
dull..the pain..
floating..no hope
desparate
help! help..
FLASH! LIGHT!
warmth..
confused..no..
peace..comfort
feeling..love.
Hope...
HOPE.

2006-04-16T15:10:00.000-04:00

Hmm..wow. Okay, God is amazing. This weekend (thurs. though Sat.) was the senior beach retreat. I wasn't looking forward to it at first. I though man...I'm not going to have any fun. (don't ask me why) Well, I have to admit, I didn't really pray about it either. I hadn't been doing so well spiritually. Well, let me tell you, it was AWESOME! God was awesome too. He was so quiet at first it drove me crazy! But I'm glad because it gave me some much needed reflection time. God is soo good! This weekend was a great time for me. I was able to reconcile with God and have an awesome time on the beach! (though I did get REALLY sunburned.((even though I put sunscrean on!!)) ) wow, I did soo much walking on the beach.
On Thurs..we got to the building after 5 hours of driving. We ate lunch at Lexington BBQ! Ha! Lizzy and I are rebles! Go cheeseburgurs! Then we stopped for icecream at the peach pit. (the best icecream around!)
When we got to our building we unloaded and then had about 2 hrs to ourselves. We got there at around 5pm. We hit the beach! It was too late to swim or anything, but most of the guys played frisbee while a friend and I walked to the peir. We had so much fun! Truitt (our youth pastor) took us to this weird burger joint for dinner. It had so many different burgers! There was even a penut butter burger! Yuck! I had a bacon and cheese burger. The guy that waited on us was a major flirt. He was definitly a southern boy, accent and all! We went to the beach on Fri. I was really blessed Fri. morning. Sam (a girl) and I went out on the beach about 7 am to have a quiet time and ended up talking for 2 hours. That was neat because I din't know her that well and it was nice to get to know her better. The total number of us was 17. 9 girls, 3 guys, 5 leaders. We have the coolest leaders. Truitt that morning held a "meeting". He talked to us about church. normally that would be a boring topic, but he brought it to our attention about how we should know what we believe before college. Because if we go to try to find a church at college and really are not sure about what church "system" to follow, we might get mixed up with really weird church or even a cult. For example, lets say your southern Baptist (well you grew up that way) and you go off to college. Your looking for church that believes what you do. Well, there are sooo many church options now. If you believe that Jesus is the son of God and that he died for you sins and rose from the dead, that's good. But there are churches that claim to believe that ,but show it totaly different. They have a ton of rules and are extremely strict, or there are churches that are incredible loose and really don't care. Okay, what I'm trying to say isn't coming out right. Let my try again. You should dig deeper and truly find out what you believe because even though the chruch may claim one thing, they may lead you down a road you shouldn't be on. Wow, I can't just say something simple! Well, I gotta go. I'll write more later. Be blessed!

2006-04-12T21:43:00.000-04:00

Wow! what an awesome awesome night! I got to hang out with Tack tonight! Tack, I had a blast! Next time, when we have more time, you are going down! It was so much fun!!!! I love you! I'm praying for you!

P.S hey ya'll check out my best friend's blog: www.blossomlight.blogspot.com
and here's a warning for you guy's: DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT! Her bro's in the air force and can knock the stuffing out of you! and her "boyfriend" will too! and You'll have to deal with me and everyone else!

2006-04-09T21:51:00.000-04:00

Wow! What a day! Okay, so at first, I wasn't at all looking forward to today. Well, for church I went to help my grandmother in the nursery. We had 7 babies today! They were so cute! Well, my choir was having a block party in the southside. I have to admit, I didn't want to go. You see, the choir isn't doing very well spiritually, and well, I have been really prideful lately and so the 2 don't mix. (God's been good though) Well, I had an AWESOME time! It was really cool. The people we met were great! Afterward, my friends and I hung out at the church. It was good to just hang with them. Then Jenna and I just hung out. We went and studied Spanish, but there was probably more talk than study:) It is such a spiritualy and physical and mental release just being with Jenna. She is such an awesome friend! I feel like I can just take on the world!! (with God of course!) Wow! what a cool day. God was really awesome. He was so patient with me today! God you are awesome! I love you so much!

2006-04-04T20:59:00.000-04:00

Hm...Wow, God is really cool! He just is. I've been thinking about what I want to do after college. Or before...
I really really want to work with kids. That has become perfectly clear. I'm possibly thinking about being a counciler for kids. Like 8-junior high girls. The Lord has been putting a lot of younger gilrs in my life who really need a friend. I'm not going to go into why for privacy reasons, but it's been a roller coaster that's for sure! I'm still considering entering the Coast Guard. (Don't tell my parents though. They WANT me to join to help pay for college and stuff. That's the only one I actually have 100% support on. I've also considered Air Force, but I don't think that idea will live much longer. I'de much rather perfer the Coast Guard. Any way...that's been my life lately. Well, i gotta go. Be blessed ya'll!

2006-03-29T21:40:00.000-05:00

Yay! We had our first D-group meeting today! Only 3 showed up but that's alright. Tack, I'm estatic your in my group. I thought you were going to be in Megan's group. It's been a good night. I'm really tired though. Hmm..
I'm still struggling with what I'm going to do after college. But I'm glad the Lord showed me my next step. Well, I gotta go. Be blessed!
S<><

2006-03-27T20:32:00.000-05:00

Hm....I have been soo busy! I went to work today...it was busy and slow....Hm...we still don't have new blenders. For those who don't know....not last Sat, but the one before..I was working and was very busy! Well, I had made a few milkshakes that morning so when a girl wanted one I was like, Sure! So right in the middle of the blending process..the blender begings to smoke and shoot out black stuff. So I tried the other blender, it started doing the same thing only WORSE! So currently we can't make milkshakes. Well there. I hope that was random enough for you. Hey guys, I am soo excited. This year I'm leading a D-group with my church! ( D-group: dicipleship group) it's a small group specificly set up for junior high girls. (Tack I'm not sure but I still hope your in my group!) We start this Wed. I am leading with my best friend Ashley. It was cool, because I wasn't sure if the Lord really wanted me to do this, but He said yes, so WOOOOHOOOOO! Be blessed ya'll!

2006-03-23T20:43:00.000-05:00

Hey Guys! Sorry I havn't written in a while. I have been soo busy! I've been pondering a lot of stuff lately...(pondering..what a cool word.. :) My week has been interesting. Hmm...a girl I know is trying to match make her brother and I. It's really neat how it's working out so far. (no, we are not dating..or anything like that!) But, she told her bro about me and he was like, " I don't want to just jump into a relationship or anything." Because he feels that would be trying to jump a head of God's plans. I was soooo relieved when I heard this because that is excatly how I feel! One of my bests friends is leaving tomorrow on a mission trip to Mexico. Her brother is paying for it all as his graduation present to her. I think that's sweet. I got to hang out with another one of my great friends last Sun. We went to Tanglewood and hung out. We ended up climbing the train. (She climbed to the very top..that was cool until some wierd lady started yelling at her...It was still fun!) She has a Tae Kwon Doe compition this weekend. My dad and bro are in it too. Hmmm.....Hey guys check out this AWESOME book! It's called Ezekiel. You can find it in the Bible. I'm reading it now. Man he was one cool prophet! Isaiah was really cool too. You should check out Isaiah 6! Gotta go!

2006-03-22T21:33:00.000-05:00

ARRRRHHH!!! Okay, I have to complain about something.. Keira Knighty is a flat out AWESOME actress!!!!
And Mathew McFayden is an awesome actor as well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HA! So there! sorry, my friend and I dissagreed. She thinks Keira Knightly stinks! And Mathew McFayden isn't good either! HA! I totally disagree!
Ahhh! I'll write later...I'm going to read my book!

2006-03-19T20:43:00.000-05:00

Hey guys, this is a test because my blog is acting up.

2006-03-18T19:17:00.000-05:00

SIGHHHH!! That was a good sigh with a smile attached:) I watched Pride & Pedjudice with my lovely, wonderful sister friend...leah.. :) What a great day! Hmm...Mr. Darcey is definitly a gentleman I think every woman would want. Mr. Bingley isn't so bad himself. My my...that accent! Leah girl, I hanvn't been able to stop that pathetic smile.. :) Hm...I'll write back later when I finally can talk sense. I Love ya lots girl!!!!!

P.S..hmm..Mr. Darcey!

2006-03-17T19:39:00.000-05:00

Sigh,..must we go through this again? How many times must I say..I LOVE YOU!? Do you not understand? I missed your company today...I missed hearing you talk to me. I know you may think you've stumbled..fallen..to much. You think you've hurt me and don't want to hurt me again. Yes, I was just a little hurt, but it hurts more when you won't let me carry you through the tough times. I love you to much. You are my pride and joy. My daughter, my beloved. I created the sun, but you are the sun that brightens my day. When your happy, I rejoice with you. When your sad, I cry with you. When your angry..well...it hurts, but I still love you. You are so stubborn...but I like that:) I'll wait for you. Maybe later, you'll finally realize how much I miss you. Untill then, I'll be watching and waiting.

2006-03-14T18:52:00.000-05:00

Hey guys! Me and my best bud, Tack, have joined forces! Check out our blog at:

www.lightbulbpaperclip.blogspot.com

I will continue to keep up this blog just as well.

2006-03-11T22:02:00.000-05:00

Hm...what a week! I am sooo tired! sigh. It was a really good day though. I got to go to the barn today. We had a storm, and I got totally soaked! The horses were well and everybody was there. I also got to hang out with my cousins tonight! That was great! I love my cousins a ton and its always good to hang with them. I'm tired. I'll write some more later!
See ya'll!

2006-03-11T21:47:00.000-05:00

Hi! This is Uno Thermopolis one again! I hope ya'll had a great day! Here are the results of the quiz!

18-20 points:

????

20-25 points:

You actually took the time to take this test!?!!......wow. (I am very impressed!)

2006-03-09T19:49:00.000-05:00

It's time to play choose your future!!!!! Hi, I'm Uno Thermopolis your host for the show! Here are the rules for the game:

You are to answer 5 questions each,
You are to answer as truthfully as possible,
You are NOT allowed to make monkey noises during the game (that means you), and
You are allowed to stop reading this and actually go do something worthwhile(but you don't have to if you don't want to. I'll be perfectly happy if you stay:

Are you ready? Great, lets play!

1. Do you find your self randomly talking to yourself for no reason at all during any hours of the day?

yea (5) nay (4) Umm..sometimes (2)

2. Do you think purple monkeys would NOT be good whitehouse representatives?

yea (5) nay (4) Sure! (8)

3. Do you find yourself talking to yourself randomly for no reason at all during any hours of the night?

yea (5) nay (4) Umm...I don't think so..(0)

4. Would you rather have a purple monkey than a blue and orange speckled bird?

yea (5) nay (4)

5. Do you think that this quiz is just pointless?

yea (5) nay (4)

Thanks for playing guys! Count the points from the quiz and let me know, I'll tell you tomorrow the results. (sorry I have a brother, blame him for the delay!)

Later! Uno Thermopolis! :P

yipppeedoodle!

2006-03-08T20:00:00.000-05:00

Wow! I am so happy! I have been so totaly stressed out lately with school and stuff, and well, after tomorow things will finally calm down some! YAY! Oh my goodness! Where I work, we now have a new owner:O How crazy! I went to work on Mon. and BAM! I was told that we had a new boss. Our original boss sold the company without telling any one! Not even the manager! Crazy isn't? It has been such a weird stressed week! On the good side, I went to the ranch yesterday. Jake did awesome! All the yearlings are up to get there feet trimmed. They have gotten big! (Tack we miss you! you and Flash need to come back soon!) Wow, what a week!

2006-03-02T20:17:00.000-05:00

Hm...hm.....I want to write something, but have no idea what! Honestly! Wow, I'm really tired. It's been a busy week. I went to check out a "base" for University of the Nations yesterday with 3 of my friends and one of their moms. It was fun! It took us 2 1/2 hours to get there. The house was BEAUTIFUL! It was like a hundred years old. I'm glad I went. I now have a peace about where I'm going next year. While at the "base" yesterday, I had no peace about University of the Nations. But I do know that going to the community college next year is what I'm supposed to do. So I'm happy about that! Hm...

2006-02-24T19:55:00.000-05:00

Hm..what a boring, no dull week. There were a few good spots. Like, having Foster Christi come and speak. And being able to go to the barn:) That was probable one of the 2 best times of my week! There were some low times as well...like when I found out...well, for those who see me, I'll let it be a surprise. I mean it's not horrible. I don't mind it, but it's never the best news for a teen who already has braces! Hm....still torn over college! That's probable the most frustrating..sigh! Oh well... God is good. I'll trust in Him!

2006-02-17T20:46:00.000-05:00

Hmm...do you ever wonder...why is a computer mouse called a mouse?

Why is the moon called the moon and not the sun, or vice-versa?
Why does your burger at a fast food restaraunt nomatter HOW MANY TIMES, YOU TELL THEM YOUR ORDER.. it always comes out wrong?
Why does...hmm..I've run out of things to wonder! If you think of any, let me know!

Yipeeeee!

2006-02-12T19:59:00.000-05:00

Yipeeee! I am now officially 18 Yippeee! WOW! 18! I'm getting old :) Luv lots! Just felt like bragging!

Hmmdily

2006-02-06T20:25:00.000-05:00

Hey Ya'll! Sorry I havn't written in a while. I've been busy! Wow, for those who love to read, I have just read two very awesome books! They're: DragonSpell and DragonQuest. I love these kind of books! Hmm...what else can I say... :) I'm comming down with a cold, but you probably don't want to know that.

2006-01-22T21:45:00.000-05:00

Hey ya'll. Sorry I havn't written in a while. I've been busy. Hey guess what! Lord willin' I'm going on World Changers this year! YAY! I just gotta keep prayin' that if it's the Lord's will that he would provide the money. God is good nomatter which way he takes me:) Today was Leslie's birth day! We all sang her happy birthday at choir. Wow! Elevate is soooo cool! That place is trippin'! Well, love ya'll!

2006-01-19T21:42:00.000-05:00

Hey guys guess what. I had a very interesting day! For the second time I got thrown from a horse. The firt I don't count because I was riding bareback, jumping and the horse jumped to soon throwing me off balance. I was falling off so I just swung down off his neck and landed on my feet. No biggie. Then today, I was riding Jake. A 2 yr old. So he was doing GREAT! I mean better than before. So Then right as I was cantering around be the gate, (he was doing great) he just (and I swear he did this on purpose to test me because he would do it to his owner) Well, he just up and started bucking and rearing. Well, If you've ever seen a wild rodeo horse bucking and rearing well that's what Jake started to do. I was hanging on quite well until he twisted his head down, and all four feet came off the ground. He then proceded to buck as high as his rear end would go and I ( I really don't remember this, but Laloni who saw it told me) I went flying over his neck. I did a full somersault over his neck and landed on my butt. It was quite humiliating! I'm glad that only Laloni and Michelle saw it. Well, that was my day:) Luv yall!

2006-01-18T21:44:00.000-05:00

Hi! I've missed you! I was starting to worry you'd never come back! We were doing so well together. Then you decided to leave me for something else. I was really sad. I hoped it was just a fluke, that you'd come running back saying "just kidding!" I waited for you. I was right were you left me. I was so excited when I heard your voice! My child, my friend, my love was returning! Please don't leave me again. It hurts to much when you leave. I can't wait to start the day with you! Well, I'll be watching while you sleep so have no fear my love. I love you! Be blessed my darling!
>Jesus.

2006-01-18T21:25:00.000-05:00

man, one of my best friends took a tumble Mon. when her hores fell on her and broke her foot! Tack, I'm prayin' for you! Hope you get well soon! I had a TON of fun tonight! I'm so blessed that you put up with me! Luv ya bunches!

~wonders~(3)

2006-01-09T20:13:00.000-05:00

Do you wonder..how many wonders I could write?
How did the rug get its name?
why is it called a blog?
Do you ever wonder why our toes are different sizes?
Or why we only have 2 ears? I mean, why not have ears surrounding your head?
Hm...:)

2006-01-08T20:59:00.000-05:00

I know your tired, I feel your pain. It's hard waiting..waiting. But don't give up. Don't surrender. The end is worth the wait. I know your confused, I know your pressured. I was too. But hold on, I'll give you strength to endure. Just ask, and I'll be there. I know your future, I understand your doubts. Don't fret, don't worry, I will guide you. All you have to do is give me your hand. I love you to much to let you go astray. Be blessed my darling, I love you.
>Jesus

2006-01-07T22:02:00.000-05:00

Hey everybody, don't forget to check out my archives. Just thought I'd let you know :)

Ooooo so much fun!

2006-01-07T21:45:00.000-05:00

Wow! I had a ton of fun today! I FINALLY got to hang out with Leah today! We had hung out before, but never had enough time. Today we hung out for like 7 hours! Fist, we went to borders and ended up getting a book on leadership. Leah got a book on Martin Luther for school. Then we headed to Arby's for a "snack". It ended up being more like a late lunch. We sat in my van in some wierd side parking lot to eat listening to Tobey Mac. We were going to try to see Narnia, but we were late, so we ended up going to the mall. We sorta went crazy. We went to Belk's first (there was nothing there.) Then Leah and I went into the Christian book store beside Belk's and Leah ended up getting a purity ring!! It was so exciting! Next, we decided to try on prom dresses for fun. There wasn't really anything at JC Penny's, so we went to Dillard's. That is after we got lost looking for it:P At Dillard's, we found the most beautiful prom dresses! The one that I liked was simple yet elegant. Modest yet dressy. It was beautiful! Leah found a black dress with diamonds on it. She was sooo beautiful in it! She looked like a princess. Though she's beautiul even without it.
We didn't know what to do next, so we went to my house where we ended up doing the dishes for my mom while jammin' to Tobey Mac. It was a lot more fun than it sounds. Afterward we watched the Shakespear play "Much ado about nothing" on TV. We had soo much fun. Thank you so much Lord for today! And by the way: Monjure lOvE! For those out there scratching your heads, well, it's really complicated.

hmmmmm:)

2006-01-06T19:11:00.000-05:00

You are like the sun. You give life to the lifeless..
You are like the rain. Your love cools heated fires of the soul.
You are like the wind. You breathe new life into the dying.
You are like the trees. You give shelter from the heat of life.
Yor are a rock. A foothold to those falling. Strong and unfailing, never changing.
You are like the ocean. Full of life, full of love.
Thankyou for everthing. For the air we breathe. For being our rock our true foundation. For your love.
For your healing rain. Thankyou for 2nd, 3rd,...and 100th chances to start again:) I love you Jusus. You rock!

WOW

2006-01-06T18:26:00.000-05:00

WOW! I never thought that Chris Seymore could ever be an answere to my prayers! Well, he was today!
Okay, this is what happened: I went to work at Maggie Moo's (blughh:#) Anyway, I was at the mall working to day, and about I think 3pm, this really wierd guy came up to me. I was pretty much out of icecream because we apparently didn't get our order yesterday ;\ So this guy (who I swear is like in his 20s or late 20s) ask me when you know we were gonna get more. I say probably after 5 but I wouldn't be there. He was like when do you get off. I say 5. BIG BIG MISTAKE! This guy then starts hitting on me! He was like can I get your number and I said: Nope! He said why not I said (my exact words): Because I don't know you from adam. I don't give my number to strangers. He aske if I had email or IM. I said I don't have IM, but I have email, but I'm not giving that to you either. Well, I found out through our conversation that he goes to Forsyth Tech, Earlier before he "hit" on me we were talking and he asked me where I wanted to go. I of course said Forsyth Tech. Well, then after I wouldn't give him any of my info, he asked me what church I went to. I told him Calvary. He started asking a TON of questions about me and what I do at church. I answered them as simply as I could not to give out to much info. Well, this guy goes to calvary too. He helped out during the Christmas program. Then it hit me: I had seen the guy before! At church! How creepy. I remember that at churh right after one of the Christmas programs I was talking to my aunt and uncle and my aunt was talking to this lady she knew. Well, this guy who hit on me (by the way his name is David) at church knew this lady my aunt was talking to. Though my aunt didn't know him. So he was there. Well, me and Katherine were sorta goofing off and this David guy got in on it. He started chasing us (mostly me) around the lobby. I didn't like it. I mean seriously, this is a GROWN MAN! So when I wasn't looking he TACKLED ME! Right into the ground. He is a grown man!
That was so wierd! I really didn't like it. Well, back to today: This guy really really began to make me feel uncomfortable! And when a customer walked up he was like gotta go! And took off really fast. Then later he walked past the kiosk and stared at me the whole time. It was really creepy. So I was like praying asking God to protect me and show me what to do. Because the guy knew I was getting off at 5. I was actually considering asking mall security to walk me to my car. Then TADA! God answerd my prayer in the most unlooked for way.
Chris Seymore showed up! I told him what was going on and he said (because he was staying in the mall until 5)that he would walk me to my van. Then I gave him ride to his car. He was really cool to do that. So, there is my crazy story! God is sooo cool and good! God you totally rock!!

hubbabaloooo!

2006-01-05T20:18:00.000-05:00

hubbabalooo! That is such a cool word! I know it's really random, but hey:)

Fire and Rain

2006-01-05T20:08:00.000-05:00

cold, dark, rushing, tumbling, gasping,
gasping for breath, drowning, cold..
gasping, air!, a strong hand, a warm blanket,
a friend. Calm, silence, sun. ..

Gone! lost, confused, spinning.
Heat, burning, flames. Running,
running from the flames. Pain, shock.
Help me! smoke, heat, flames, darkness..
help..me..
Rain. cool, crisp. Light, beautiful light.
The flames, dim, the fire subsides.
Peace, precious peace. A face,
a smile. My friend.
I waited for you. I was wondering
when you'd call. he said.
The flames dissapear, the rain lightens.
Light, it shines all around. The peace,
it grows. I will always be there, he says,
just call. just call.

hurt

2006-01-04T21:39:00.000-05:00

Lost..confused..sceaming,
screaming for anything but you.
I want you, but I'm tied down.
I want to be saved, I know you love
me, but..why? To many questions..
to many doubts...to many...
fears. Fear of what? Fear
of my own heart. Fear of hurting.
I know hurt...not of me but of you.
I love you to much, I don't want to
hurt you..again. Don't say that..
I know you love me..I know..
I know..I believe, but.. I
know you say, "if you love Me,
then obey me." I know you want me
back. I just..I don't want to hurt you
again. I just don't know...

2006-01-04T21:28:00.000-05:00

Wow! This was a really cool night! Tonight I had youth it was really cool. Truett spoke. He spoke about starting fresh in the new year. This is what he taught on:

Stop those excuses!
T(okay, I admit, I missed this one)
Act on faith! We walk by faith not by site!
Renew your mind!
Trust! the only way you can act on faith is with trust! Trust Jesus and he will never lead you astray.

After youth, me, Leah, Chris, Jeremy, and Katy hung out. It was so much fun. I even learned how to sign "good night" Okay, I'm really running out of things to say....

~wonders~ (2)

2006-01-02T20:16:00.000-05:00

Hhmmm...
Have you ever wondered..
Why we wonder?
:P

for the readers

2005-12-30T22:46:00.000-05:00

Hey ya'll, feel free to leave a comment about any of my posts. All you do is click where it says comments. I would love to hear from you!
>Stiffy<><

Hey guys!

2005-12-27T19:52:00.000-05:00

Hey guys! There is this really cool devotional book that I just got. It's called: My Upmost For His Highest! It really good! Any way. I hope ya'll had a great Christmas! I did! God is good:) Even during the hard times He is good! So...I really don't know what else to say. Oh well:P

Sooooo upset:(

2005-12-26T18:20:00.000-05:00

man! I am soooooooooo upset! Okay, for all of you out there who have not read the last book of The Chronicles of Narnia: The Last Battle, then skip this post! WARNING! DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVEN'T READ THE LAST BATTLE! THIS WILL BE A HUGE SPOILER!

Okay, now back to what I was saying. I'm really upset about The Last Battle because of the ending.
For those who have read the end, then you know that Lucy, Edmund, Peter, Eustice, Jill, and I think Lucy's parents actually died in a train wreck. Well, I'm not upset about that because they go and live in the true Narnia (not the old one), any way, Susan had stopped believing in Narnia, thus she wasn't with her sister and brothers. THis really really really upsets me. Did she die as well? Does that mean she is forever seperated from them? If so then I'm about to give up liking Narnia (well, that's not true, but I am really upset) You see, I myself could relate to Susan. WEll, sorta. She was one of my favorite people. Since it doesn't really say I, with my very good imagination, came up with an idea. My idea is that Susan didn't die, but is still living, even though an orphan. Thus she is given another chance to believe in Narnia. She in her despair rediscovers Narnia, believes, and when she dies, goes to live in the true Narnia. I know that is probably so totally wrong, but I still want to hold out hope for Susan. It just doesn't seem right without her. So comment on it all you want, but oh well.
And if you are have not read the last battle, well, I warned you it would be a spoiler, so oh well.

2005-12-24T16:39:00.000-05:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And now, I shall go wrap some very unwrapped presents!

Waiting

2005-12-24T15:44:00.000-05:00

I missed you today. I was looking for you. I waited for you. Did you not hear me calling?
I watched over you while you slept. I excitedly waited for the morning. I thought, yes! Maybe today! Maybe
today, you would hear my calling. I couldn't wait to talk to you! It has been so long! I miss you! I waited patiently for you as you got up. My heart was full of anticipation. But you turned away. Okay, I thought, maybe later. As you got ready for school. I helped you find your shoes, but you didn't know it. As you drove, I kept a drunk from hitting you. But you didn't know it. As you waited..and waited..and waited for the light to turn green. I called your name. Hoping you would hear. But no, you turned on your radio. As the day went on, I was there. I was there as you rushed to class. I was there when you finally passed your spanish class with an A. I rejoiced over you. I love you! I was there when those guys stole your money. I was there when you tried to cover up your black eye. I cried over you! I want to help you! I wanted to be right by your side. But you pushed me away. All you had to do was call my name. I was there when you came home to your parents fighting. I was there when you were hurt by their angry words. I wanted to swing down and comfort you. I wanted to wipe away all your pains. All you had to do was call. But you turned away. You went to bed hurt, angry, and dissapointed. I waited and watched you as you slept. Maybe tomorrow, I thought.
The next day came. Still you turned away. "No." you thought "No, why should I call to a God who doesnt' care?" NO! I thought. I'm not like that! I care! I really do! You just won't let me! Finally, you met a friend who ivited you to a party. "Yes!" You thought, " I need to get away." But it was unlike anyparty you've ever been to.
Right in the middle of the party, a man got up to speak. He spoke of me! You tried to tune him and me out.
But couldn't. I waited, I was on the edge. I wanted to jump up and shout, but I waited. The man spoke of my love. My comfort. He spoke of what I did for you on the cross. Yes, it was painfull, but I would do anything to keep you with me. I LOVE YOU! I want you to have the best. He spoke of the people mocking me. Their harsh words. The beatings they gave me. You thougth before that I couldn't understand your pain. I do understand more than you know. Finall the moment came I had waited for for so long!
"JESUS! I need you! " your vioce broke, and My heart burst at your call. "Here I am" I said, and I will never ever leave!

Hoorraayyy!

2005-12-24T15:35:00.000-05:00

okay, I finally met Steven Terenova!!!!!!!!! YAY! For all of you scratching your heads, Steven takes Tae Kwon Doe with my dad and my brother. He is the same age as me and apparently knew about me for a while. It's a really long story, but here goes:
My dad met Steven at TKD(Tae Kwon Doe) Apparently, we had a lot in common and told Steven so. Well, over the past summer we never got the chance to meet because of our scedules. So we pretty much communicated through my dad. Now, how weird can you get? Well, finally last night I got to meet him. Ashley who goes to my church takes TKD at the same place and knew Steven. She was able to get up with him and we 3 made arrangements to go see the movie King Kong last night. It was really fun and I finnaly got to meet him. He's a pretty cool guy. Sorta crazy though in a good way. By the way, King Kong is an AWESOME movie!

Lalalalalaaaaa la LAAAAAAAAAAAA! :p

2005-12-22T20:31:00.000-05:00

Okay, you've probable guessed it, I"m bored. Hey guess what, I can multi- task! I'm talking to my dad and writing at the same time! Ha! Ain't I special. Okay, really really lame story:
I was at my dad's side of the family's Christmas gathering last Sat. For some odd reason, we had 3 difirent teas. One was peach, one was unsweet :# (yuck! NObody in my family drinks that! Why in the world did we have it?)
Anyway, the last tea said : ant. sweet , so I was like, ain't sweet? See, my family is just like that. I wouldn't have doubted for a minute that one of them actually wrote, ain't sweet on the tea. So I ask my cousing why it's written as ain't sweet. She started laughing and said that it wasn't "ain't sweet" but it was actually artifitial sweetner, and that the n on ant. sweet. was really supposed to be an r. Go figure! Well, I wasn't the only one:)

~Wonders~

2005-12-20T21:19:00.000-05:00

Do you ever wonder..
Why is the sky blue? Why is the grass green?
Was Atlantis real? If so, what happened to it?
Why is there brail at a DRIVE UP atm?
Who figured out that you can get milk out of a cow? (seriously think about it)
Why do PETA supporters eat at a McDonald's or a BurgerKing? Do they think they are helping the animals by eating them?
Why is winter called winter, and not summer?
Or Summer not called winter? (It may seem obvious, but think about it)
Why do some words sound weird after you say them over and over? (say like cow over and over slowly)
Why are Hotdogs called hotdogs when they're made from pigs or even turkeys?

I have a crazy van!

2005-12-20T21:15:00.000-05:00

Here's some really random crud: Today, my van, Woody (dubbed woody by Kathy from chuch) decided to spew black smoke from the exhaust pipe while I was heading to the barn. I come home that evening to a van that was okay, it just decided to be ornery. I swear my van is ALIVE and likes to play tricks on me! Yeah, really random crud. But hey, you read it :P

Yay!

2005-12-20T21:10:00.000-05:00

YAY! Yay, Christmas break starts tomorrow!!!!! For all of you reading my blog, MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Why?

2005-12-19T21:44:00.000-05:00

Why? Why do you run? Don't you know I love you? I don't want to harm you. I love you. I give you the sun by day to warm your body and soul. I give you the moon and the stars by night to light your way in the dark. I love you. Yes, there will be hard times, but I will be there. I am your port in the storms. Your stronghold in the wind. You may go through fire, but hold fast! Do not run! In the end you shall come out purer than the finest gold. I am there, even when you can't feel me, I'm there. Why do you run? Are you scared? Don't be.
For I will be your courage. Are you scared of the dark? I will be your light. Are you scared of falling? I will be your rock, your firm foundation. If you fall, have no fear, I will be there. I will catch you faster than a thought. All you have to do is call my name. Are you scared of others mocking you? Of thinking your a freak? I went through it all. I was a freak to the world. I was mocked, cast out, and beaten. I wil be there with and for you. I will be your shield. If your are with me, even if your torn, beaten, mocked, you will prevail- even though death. I was beaten, mocked, and killed. For you? Why would I go through all that pain just to say, I don't love you. I don't forgive you? Those are lies. I died in your place that you may live with me forever. I LOVE YOU! I will always be there. Please come back. I miss you. Until you realize how much I love you, I will wait.
-Jesus

this is for you tack

2005-12-18T21:41:00.000-05:00

LIGHTBULB!!!!!!!

More random stuff

2005-12-18T21:34:00.000-05:00

Here's some more random pointless facts about me: I've had only like 3 crushes in my ENTIRE life. No, I won't tell you who, except for 1: Leonardo Decaprio. How random is that? Now, I can't even stand the guy. I liked him in, I think, the 4th grade. I don't have a boyfriend. Hmm..even if I did, I don't think I'd bring him to my family's Christmas. They'd probably scare him away :P To all my older cousins: You are so brave! Well, maybe that should go more to their boyfriends. :)

just stuff

2005-12-18T21:25:00.000-05:00

okay, I'm like, really really bored right now. Oh well. There's only 2 more days 'till Christmas break!! Yay! Tack it was really good to see you tonight. O wow, last night my dad's family had its Christmas thing. It was so much fun! My cousin is gettin' married in March! How crazy is that! It's funny, she's marrying a guy named Mark. Now we have 2 Marks in the family. It's really confusing. o.o aNy way, I know this is probalby just a bunch of crud to you, but oh well, your the one reading it:) My cousin Kimberly is one of my coolest cousins. She gave me like a whole bag of her old clothes! I mean she's still a really cool cousin anyway. I'm not really into clothes at all, but I really needed some new ones. So I'm really happy:) Kimberly, if your reading this your one cool cousin! Even if you didn't give me any clothes. It was great to see you!
Well, I told you I was bored:P

Hmmm...

2005-12-15T16:35:00.000-05:00

Hey guys, just to let you know, the dates on my posts are wrong. I'm trying to fix it, but it's not working. Just so you know.

This is a totally cool poem!

2005-12-14T21:48:00.000-05:00

The Listeners
"Is there anybody there?" said the Traveller,
Knocking on the moonlit door;
And his horse in the silence champed the grasses
of the forest's ferny floor:
And a bird flew up out of the turret,
Above the Traveller's head:
And he smote upon the door again a second time;
"Is there anybody there?" he said.
But no one descended to the Traveller;
No head from the leaf'-fringed sill
Leaned over and looked into his grey eyes,
Where he stood perplexed and still.
But only a host of phantom listeners
That dwelt in the lone house then
Stood listening in the quiet of the moonlight
To that voice from the world of men:
Stood thronging the faint moonbeams on the dark stair,
That goes down to the empty hall,
Hearkening in an air stirred and shaken
By the lonely Traveller's call.
And he felt in his heart their strangeness,
Their stillness answering his cry,
While his horse moved, cropping the dark furf,
'Neath the starred and leafy sky;
For he suddinly smote on the door, even
Louder, and lifted his head: -
"Tell them I came, and no one answered,
That I kept my word," he siad.
Never the least stir made the listeners,
Though every word he spake
Fell echoing through the shadowiness of the still house
From the one man left awake:
Ay, they heard his foot upon the stirrup,
And the sound of iron on stone,
And how the silence surged softly backward,
When the plunging of hoofs were gone.

*Walter De La Mare

bored

2005-12-10T14:50:00.000-05:00

I'm bored. It's Saturday and I have nothing to do. Well, in my opinion. My mom's opinion is quite different. Well, I better go clean my room. Blahh

The warrior's armor

2005-12-09T20:44:00.000-05:00

Tack, I was originally put this post out for you, but I figured anybody could see this one. (This post is mostly for Christians but if your not you could learn something as well)
This is what David Sapp ( a really cool guy) spoke about last Wed. night.

We being Christians have a fight continuously before us. Because we are Christians we have already won the battle! Jesus has already defeated satan. Satan knows this, but wants to take out as many humans (not just Christians) as he can. Just to get at God. As warriors for Christ we need armor. Without it, just like in a real physical battle we would totally lose. Ephesians6:12 says: For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Thus we need to be prepared. Eph.6:13 says: Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day fo evil comes, you may be able to stand you ground.
This is your amor:

The warrior's armor: Ephesians 6:14-18

Eph. 6:14
1> Belt of Truth
Satan likes to attack with lies. That is his main weapon. He is the father of lies.
Satan will use lies to break you and wear you down. He will use lies like, "your no good, your worthless, God doesn't really love you." and so on. Those are flat out lies. But sometimes when we get down they are easy to believe.
>John 8:32 says: "..the truth shall set you free" It will. Jesus didn't die on the cross and bear all that pain just so he could say, "naw , I really don't love you and your worthless!" In the ancient Roman times, men wore dress like clothes. When in battle they had to wear a belt to hold up their long clothes so they woudn't trip and fall. Not only it SURE IS HARD running in a dress.(all you ladies out there know what I mean:) If you trip and fall when someone is coming to kill you that gives the other person an advantage. (duhh!) For us, the belt of truth is holding our long robes up so we don't trip and fall for the devil. It reminds us that those things are lies.

Eph 6:14
>Breastplate of rightechousness.
(sorry guys, I ran out of time. I'll tackle this one tomorrow. By the way, if you understood what I said earlier, let me know. If not let me know also, and then I'll try to explain later.)

my friends

2005-12-08T20:25:00.000-05:00

Hey, I wanted to put down my friends. I am so blessed to have such AWESOME friends! Here they are:

Ashely R.
Jenna W.
Tack
Tory
Katherine
Megan
Maddie
Andrew
Amelia
Sara D.
Jacob D.

Sorry, I don't have much more time. If I left your name out, I'm sorry:( I just don't have the time! But I love you all!

Hello!

2005-12-06T21:32:00.000-05:00

Well, I finally did it, I created a blog. I don't quite know what to think yet. My friend wanted me to so I did it. I'll post later when I have something to post.:)